Today I have felt sad
I talked to a friend and she was asking me
how I'll feel if we are never picked to be adoptive parents.
Ugh...
I really want to pretend there is no possibility in that ever happening.
It made my mind wander
Something that can cause unneeded emotions in one.
I felt the tears rising.
then
I prayed lying down...
crying.
that is better that way than being on your knees right?
I wish I always had control of these crazy emotions
honestly...
it would make this experience so much more bearable.
I talked to a friend and she was asking me
how I'll feel if we are never picked to be adoptive parents.
Ugh...
I really want to pretend there is no possibility in that ever happening.
It made my mind wander
Something that can cause unneeded emotions in one.
I felt the tears rising.
then
I prayed lying down...
crying.
that is better that way than being on your knees right?
I wish I always had control of these crazy emotions
honestly...
it would make this experience so much more bearable.
10 comments:
Oh man. I hate this story. I just can't believe it would ever be true. There is no way Heavenly Father made such wonderful parents out of you and Kris to not give you guys a kid! Just no way!!!
Praying lying down is totally effective by the way. I'm so sorry you have to wait but I really think that's all it is...just waiting. It'll happen!!!
I tell Brandon all the time I would have a child for you guys in a heart beat. Brandon and I have both said if we were to choose parents for our kids we'd pick you guys. You are everything we would want for our children.
Hang in there.
Heavenly Father is always pleased to hear from his children.
You will be picked!!! There is no way that could ever happen. You guys are too amazing, and you are so ready to be parents.
I wish that I could reach out and give you a big hug right now. My oh my, it is so hard to be patient while thinking "what on earth am I supposed to be learning after this long?" I don't know what to say except that the Lord IS mindful of you MiRanda. He IS walking hand in hand with you through this trial, although it is sometimes hard to know that. But through my own trials, i know that this is true. Our challenges have just begun, I think, but I know that he is aware of me, my needs, emotions, heartaches, and my joys, which in turn affect how I handle everything and everyone else in m life.
I will keep you guys in my prayers. There is a little person still in heaven or on this earth just getting ready to come to you. They are cheering you on too. I love you my dear friend.
The only way of that not happening is the surety of greater happiness coming from a different source.
You deserve the greatest happiness deary and He knows that.
You are in my prayers MiRanda (and Kris). I'm sorry this hurts. I hope something comes to fruition soon.....
It sounds like your friend is trying to make herself feel better by bring you down. What would her point be? She sounds like a sad little woman.
People should learn to keep their mouth closed.
We love your!!!
i LOVE you! Here's a big hug from me to you- all the way from GA!
i would pick you....every time!
i love you guys!
heather.
What you are going through is the hardest thing in the world. You are in my prayers
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